I fell off the wagon a bit. My New Years Resolutions have mostly gone out the window. As I wrote that last sentence, I realized that I need to wash the makeup off of my face before I kill that commitment, too…Anyway. I’ve taken a hiatus from those things the past month or so as I dealt with some life transitions and health situations. Through the past few months, I’ve been using pinterest as my primary coping skill for describing my feelings. Because my brain is not in a place to get back to full content mode, welcome to life lessons through pinterest graphics.
We have over a foot of snow on the ground. I’ve been sick for almost a full week. It goes without saying(but I’m going to say it anyway) I’m going absolutely insane. In order to not go completely crazy, here is a list of things I’m really excited to do when the weather is warmer!
1 . Picnics-
When it’s warm, we use pretty much any excuse to eat outdoors. I keep at least one of these picnic blankets in the back of my car at all times. Just in case of an impromptu hang out.
Kayaking: There are so many parks and lakes within a 30 minute drive of my house. I’m not sure how I lived here for so long before learning. I went kayaking with the staff of the summer camp where I used to work, and I have loved it ever since. A kayak will probably be my first big selfish adult purchase.
Fishing: I get to go fishing maybe once a year. My goal is to go a lot more this year. My little cousins really love it; so, it’ll be good bonding with them.
Going to the beach: I haven’t been to the beach in multiple years. This is a crime and an injustice in my life, and I will NOT stand for it. I will go to the beach at least twice this year. Maybe even for my birthday. We’ll see.
5.Mountain sunsets: I live 5 minutes away from one of my favorite view of the mountains ever. I’ll be spending a lot more time just hanging out there enjoying the view and the warm weather…and maybe even the pool.
Welcome to confession time. I’d like to say I’m pretty good at giving advice. I am not, however, always good at taking it. This week I’ve had some forced lessons in some of those hard to follow directions.
1.REST: I’m really bad at resting. I always have some kind of noble reason not to. There’s always work to be done. Between 18 inches of snow(ew) and being sick all week, I have had no choice but to rest. My body and brain have obviously needed it. It took a trip to the ER on Friday night to finally give in. This was only after spending the day out with friends and prepping to go to an all day conference. Yeah, my version of resting is going to a youth ministry conference.
2. Taking a break: These things go hand in hand. If I’m working on something, I am not the “let’s put a pin in this and come back later.” I am the we’re going to finish this and it will be the best it can possibly be type of girl. If I’m going to start something, I want to finish it. I’m starting to learn that sometimes, the project isn’t yours to finish, and that’s okay.
So, because of these two things. You’ll see I’ll be ALLOWING MYSELF to get behind on where I wanted to be with blogging, book reading, and other tasks. Rest is more important than a self-made to do list.
So, back in January, I decided to be
delusional ambitious and make a lofty list of New Year’s Resolutions. You can read that post here! Here’s where I am at the end of February.
1. I have succeeded in washing my makeup off every day before I go to bed.
2. I have not read something from the Bible every single day.
3. I obviously have not journaled every day.
4. I have had real conversations with at least 3 people every day.
1. I think I missed doing laundry one week.
2. Purging stuff once a week was ambitious.
3. Blogging has gone pretty good! I think I’m still at least 1 week ahead.
4. I haven’t had a full intense with vacuum cleaning of the jeep, but I have definitely been intentional about taking things out of it.
1. I am almost done my second book. I started a Bible study that has a lot of journaling type questions and readings to go along with it- so it kind of counts. Maybe as a 1/2 point?
2. I am on track so far with mail. I need to send it for March. I have some stuff ready to go. I lost my fun sized mailing envelopes though. So the fun stuff has to wait.
Bragging moment. Back in January when I went to Winter Jam, one of my friends won the chance to meet one of our favorite bands, Tenth Avenue North! We have a long standing deal that we share the rewards of any winning within reason. I’ve loved TAN since I first saw them live in 2010 at Night of Joy in Disney. They weren’t well known outside of Florida, and they definitely weren’t as big of a deal as they are now. Every time I see them, I’m blown away. On their newest album, there’s a song called “I Have This Hope.” You can listen to their version with another one of my favorite artists, Matt Maher, here!
I loved the song from the beginning, but I didn’t hear the story behind it until much later. Jeff’s sister in law was diagnosed with cancer. They tell the story of writing this song for her as a reminder of God’s presence in the midst of trials. I first heard the story on the radio on my way to work. I had to pull over. So many of us have love ones who have been affected by cancer. I’m not immune to being a part of that “so many.” It’s been a long 6 or 7 months for my family. I cry every time I hear someone retell the story of Jeff’s sister in law. They talk about their struggles as they watch someone they love going through their worst moments. Is God good? Is God even there? How could He let these things happen?
But sometimes my faith feels thin,
Like the night will never end.
Will You catch every tear?
Or will You just leave me here?
It’s really easy to get stuck in that mindset. Fear is paralyzing. What if God doesn’t come through? We are so human and so easy to forget that God is faithful to keep His promises. Hebrews 6:19 says that we have HOPE as an anchor for our souls. An anchor is meant to be a stable, constant force in a time of turmoil. That’s who Jesus is. Even we we doubt Him. Even when we don’t see Him working in a situation. Even when we’re broken and hurting and walking in the midst of trials. I have an anchor tattoo on my ankle for crying out loud yet I forget the truth of Hebrews 6:19 and Isaiah 43:2.
I will be with you.
When you go through rivers of difficulty,
you will not drown.
When you walk through the fire of oppression,
you will not be burned up;
the flames will not consume you.”
This verse reminds us that we cannot always avoid the trial, but God is present in everything. There is no place we will go where God will no go with us, and He has not gone before us. No matter what the situation-” I have this Hope in the depth of my soul. In the flood or the fire, You are with me, and You won’t let go.”
In 9th grade, our English teacher had us write a letter to our future self. I’m sure it was filled with inside jokes and things I thought I’d want to remember. I probably did my best to sound wise. We talked about our hopes, what we thought we’d being doing as college freshman, and what we saw ourselves doing long term. At that time, I definitely didn’t know what I wanted to do with the rest of my life. So, I can only imagine what 9th grade me pictured herself studying. I remember someone in the class put $20 in that envelope. Freshman year of college, she mailed them to us. I remember my excitement getting mine. As I write this, I cannot remember one single thing from that letter. It’s funny how what was once so important is completely forgotten. The small memories of the past fade quickly. However, there are some memories from our past that stay with us longer than we’d ever want. They set up camp and constantly remind us they exist, as much as we’d rather forget.
My book for January was For The Love by Jen Hatmaker. You can read my recaps of For the Love Part One:Community, Courage, and Church and For the Love Part 2: Living A Worthy Life. The last and arguably the most important theme in her book was her writing style. Jen has a whole lot of love and a whole lot of hard truths. #RealTalk and #RealLove is what sums it all up.
I don’t have children, but her section “Dear Kids” was enough to make anyone cry. She charged them with taking care of the people around them and learning how to love others deeply, as Jesus did. ” The tiniest scrap of hope is enough to save a lonely kid from drowning…you can save hearts and lives with grace.” The following may have been the quote that most resonated with me in the entire book.
She spent a lot of time talking about children and teenagers. She quoted the alarming statistics of young people who are leaving the Church in this generation. She identified one of the key tools in fighting the numbers: listening to them. She urges readers to listen to the youth and young adults. She says “We can either listen carefully or watch their backs as they go” and reminds us that they “pay equal attention to what isn’t working as much as what is.”
She reminds parents that doubting and questioning is a human response, and their children will not shatter the world by digging deep. “Our children can press extremely hard on the Gospel, and it will hold.” Parents, the infallible Word can withstand anything, including the intellectualism of this world. Stand on the Word and allow your children to learn that they can, too. She admits, as all parents, she has failed at times. That the “best we can do is give them Jesus” and point them to the only real answer- which is not her sage parenting advice. She cites community, social justice, depth, and mentorship as what they really need.
In her section “Dear Church,” she hit readers with more startling statistics. 70% of pastors fight depression, 70% would also say they don’t have one close friend, and 80% would agree their family suffers because of their ministry. Yet, there’s a stigma that comes with the position. Judgement and fear keep pastors and church staff from seeking the help they need, the help we all deserve. Be kind to your pastors, friends. They are absolutely called to higher standards of living, and God sets that clear in the Bible. They are also human and have the same emotions we all do. They are not immune to humanity. Pray for them. us
Overall, For The Love was a great start to 2017’s reading list. Next up is The Christian Athiest by Craig Groeschel.