I Have This Hope 10/52

Bragging moment. Back in January when I went to Winter Jam,  one of my friends won the chance to meet one of our favorite bands, Tenth Avenue North! We have a long standing deal that we share the rewards of any winning within reason. I’ve loved TAN since I first saw them live in 2010 at Night of Joy in Disney. They weren’t well known outside of Florida, and they definitely weren’t as big of a deal as they are now. Every time I see them, I’m blown away. On their newest album, there’s a song called “I Have This Hope.” You can listen to their version with another one of my favorite artists, Matt Maher, here!

I loved the song from the beginning, but I didn’t hear the story behind it until much later. Jeff’s sister in law was diagnosed with cancer. They tell the story of writing this song for her as a reminder of God’s presence in the midst of trials. I first heard the story on the radio on my way to work. I had to pull over. So many of us have love ones who have been affected by cancer. I’m not immune to being a part of that “so many.”  It’s been a long 6 or 7 months  for my family. I cry every time I hear someone retell the story of Jeff’s sister in law. They talk about their struggles as they watch someone they love going through their worst moments. Is God good? Is God even there? How could He let these things happen?

But sometimes my faith feels thin,
Like the night will never end.
Will You catch every tear?
Or will You just leave me here?

These past few months, I’ve related to that more than I want to admit. Christian culture has this false idea lie that if you’re a Christian, life is going to be easy. If you’re a real Christian, you’ll never doubt or question anything. This is a lie, and like all lies, it damages our souls.  I am just a person, and I am not God. I’m not the Creator of the Universe. I am not the Savior of the World. I am also not condemned for my moments of doubt and pain because  if there’s anyone who knows about suffering, it’s Jesus Christ. When Job found himself in dire situations, he presented his case to God. And not only was God able to withstand being questioned by Job, He answered Job’s questions. God’s existence, goodness, and sovereignty is not dependent upon my consistency. It is based simply upon His character.
It’s really easy to get stuck in that mindset. Fear is paralyzing. What if God doesn’t come through? We are so human and so easy to forget that God is faithful to keep His promises. Hebrews 6:19 says that we have HOPE as an anchor for our souls. An anchor is meant to be a stable, constant force in a time of turmoil. That’s who Jesus is. Even we we doubt Him. Even when we don’t see Him working in a situation. Even when we’re broken and hurting and walking in the midst of trials. I have an anchor tattoo on my ankle for crying out loud yet I forget the truth of Hebrews 6:19 and Isaiah 43:2.
Isaiah 43:2 says “When you go through deep waters,
    I will be with you.
When you go through rivers of difficulty,
    you will not drown.
When you walk through the fire of oppression,
    you will not be burned up;
    the flames will not consume you.”

This verse reminds us that we cannot always avoid the trial, but God is present in everything. There is no place we will go where God will no go with us, and He has not gone before us. No matter what the situation-” I have this Hope in the depth of my soul. In the flood or the fire, You are with me, and You won’t let go.”

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